Emotions of the day.

Let me start off by saying hi. What exactly is hi? Some immature people among reading that word would automatically associate it with 'High'. once again that is a psychological issue caused by hanging around friends that would make jokes of that sort of thing.

Enough of tangents though. Let me express my feelings towards things I feel need to have feelings towards. First of all, if you know me, I am normally pretty chill. I don't over-react too often. I have snapped at people in person only about five times. All these times have been because of emotional build up with me neglecting to release them. I do need to work on expressing my feelings better, which I have improved with today. As I turned that 90 degree corner today trying to be a 'bad A', thoughts crossed through my mind. I immediately reflected to paste experiences of drifting in snow parking lots. I have been in vehicles who have hit sidewalks like that before, although it seems to be different on dry asphalt at 35 MPH and hitting it at the right angle. With the final result of me feeling like I was punched in the gonads. My car limping to the parking spot where it rested until the tow truck arrived, seemed to call out to me and say "you sir are one stupid teenager". As I contemplated that thought further, it turned out to be my conscience.

I think I expressed emotions on a highly logical level of what I was experiencing, at least in my perspective. I felt very desolate, lifeless, and a distinct feeling of sorrow. I did not actually react to the situation in full until I thought about punching someone in the face. I know feel bad about this knowing that the person I wanted to punh and curb stomp had some slight mental issues. I had to resort to other means which involved kicking over a chair and pouting. Now, not many people actually care how you feel, or want to intervene, or would even know how. So after about 30 minutes of that I had to build a mental bridge, and get over it. It's life, sometimes it sucks, and yet we keep striving forward towards that everlasting goal of Perfection.

Thank you for your time and effort in reading my feelings. I feel that I will be able to express them better on this rather than the Vlogs, which are geared more towards comedy anyway. Please excuse any spelling and grammar mistakes, because I got most of my education in Juab.